Happy Halloween!

Here is my Halloween so far. And don't be afraid to tell me how absolutely stunning I am as a homeless man.

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My fellow homeless friend Natalie

Help! Her family was kidnapped by ninjas! She needs money for karate lessons!

And then here is witches night out a few weekends ago. I was slighty better looking that night.

Me n' Jess

My brother Kasons cutie pie GF Ali

My other brother Cody's lovely GF Diana aka "Dana"

Jess rocking out

My adorable sis Shelby aka "Maria" aka "Maria Sanchez" aka "Sanchez"

Diana's sister Ali looking all spooky

My Mom making a weird face

Cutest witch ever

My cute little Grammie

I hope everyone has a fun and safe Halloween!

Friday favorites 4

1) I started this new diet. But it isn't really a diet. It's a lifestyle change. I am completely changing my whole way of eating. In less than one week I have lost 5 pounds. It's really easy to follow as long as you have the determination to not go back to your old snack fat ass ways. Raw fruits and veggies, fish, chicken, whole wheat grains, yummy brown rice..stuff like that. No sugar and very low sodium. I have been following an awesome blog called undressed skeleton. Link is http://undressedskeleton.tumblr.com/. Check it out. It's really inspiring.

2) Wish-Bone salad spritzer. Way less calories and bad stuff and you just spray the salad. I did it today with like 15 sprays and it tasted way good. It was only 15 calories per 10 sprays.

3) Clear Zinc Solar Protection by Lucrece. Here is their websites definition: "Clear Zinc is a physical (not chemical) sunblock that provides full spectrum sun protection. It is derived from pure and high quality natural resources that help to produce the finest cosmetic quality nano Zinc Oxide, which is also an anti-irritant and astringent in addition to providing outstanding sun protection." In Heather's words..it gives wayyyy good coverage you don't even need to wear foundation. The zinc heals zits and redness. It has a good SPF so you know its protecting you too. You have to get it from a professional I think though. I have a great esthetician if you want a reference.

Bedrooms I heart

I love sleeping. Like a lot. I would be a professional sleeper if I could. Here are some beds and bedrooms that I wouldn't mind sleeping in one little bit. Enjoy!

 

 

You wouldn't think by looking at my room that I love white bedding. I have a spice pumpkin colored bedspread with chocolate brown sheets and pillows. But I do love white bedding. But I own two huge dogs. So unfortunately I had to give up my dreams of a white bed. I love them because they are so relaxing and comforting. Like you are sleeping on a cloud. A beautiful glorious cloud.

Hello, my name is Irritated

OK I am in a really irritable mood. I think I may be getting my monthly present soon and I am feeling my emotions getting all weird and increasing to dramatic.

A) Women in news. I cannot stand the way they speak. It makes me want to get incredibly violent. I want to punch them all in the crotch and I also want to punch the person who invented talking that way in the crotch. I totally turn off the news on a regular basis because of this. It is like bugs are crawling all over me. I can't stand it!!!!!!!!!!!

B) The hair that women in news have. Seriously? Let's put pictures of all of them side by side and have a contest on who has the worst hair.

C)When I ask people for their address and they leave out the city, state, and zip code. IF I DON'T HAVE THOSE THEN YOUR ORDER WILL NOT GET TO YOU DUMBASS!!!!!!!!!!!!

D) Do not say to me or any woman "You look so cute today! What are you doing after work?" Or "You look so pretty, what is the occasion?"  Do not try giving me a compliment for doing my makeup and not wearing sweats to work and then have it be followed by you implying I must be doing something extra special to make an effort in my appearance.

E) My effing right boot will not stay up. I look stupid.

F) Why did the stupid ass demon in Paranormal Activity 2 have to go after the cute dog? Go after the asshole Dad!

G) Why is it that when you are on a diet....all you ever see is candy and stuff. It's like when you go to the mall with lots of money and never find any clothes..but when you go and you don't have any spending money then all of a sudden there are millions of things you want.

This is what I want to do right now in the middle of work:

Really bad night

This morning I woke up in a really bad state. I am emotionally exhausted and my eyes are swollen from crying. I had to force myself out of bed to go to work. An hour after I got to work I asked my boss if it was ok if I took an early lunch. I went out to my car, curled up in a ball, and tried to sleep. I think I finally am doing better and that I can be happy. I stop crying and let go of the anger..and then something like what happened last night happens. It's a humongous slap in the face and every emotion I have inside me comes flooding back and I am taken back to the day Gabriel left this world. I can't function. It's like I am in some sort of trance and I just stare in once place and sit. I ache so bad. My heart literally hurts. I feel like it isn't beating anymore.

Last night on my way home from work around 7:30 I had this feeling I needed to go visit my baby. I pulled up and walked up to his spot. Some sick twisted evil person stole his decorations. His flowers in his vase were gone and this adorable Halloween pumpkin train my Grammie special ordered for him was gone. I immediately started crying and shaking. I just fell to the ground and laid there and cried. How could someone do that? I lost my son when he was 7 years old. In order to see him I have to go to a cemetery. Do they not know how special and tender that place is to me? I decorate it as cute as I can for him. I want things there that I know he would enjoy. It makes me feel closer to him. And someone just takes it?

I called Ryan hysterical. I was crying so hard I was forcing the throw up back down. I just started walking around the cemetery in the dark just blindly wandering. Hoping I would find it somewhere. It might seem like I am over reacting to some of you. But it feels to me like someone stole a part of Gabe from me last night. It ripped my heart out again. I didn't find his things. Ryan came rushing over and brought some other Fall flowers I had used from last year. He was so angry. I think he may have killed someone if he had found out who it was. We both don't know how to handle it. We try so hard to get through each day and try to get stronger each day and then something like this happens and sets us back.

I want to leave work so bad right now. He is at home in bed and that is all I want to do. I just want to sleep all this hurt and pain away. This is such an evil cruel world. So much negativity and sadness. Gabriel made all of that go away. He made this world bright and happy. He brought so much joy to life. Gabe is the perfect example of joy. And now he isn't here and I just feel sadness and anger and despair. I wish there were cameras at the cemetery. I want to know what kind of person would do something like that. Ryan is calling the city today and reporting it. I don't know if anything can be done or not. And I am not going to stop decorating it and making it special for him just because someone decided to do that. They can do it over and over and I will never stop.

Pretties for my house

I love my home. In fact, when Ryan and I were looking for a house..this was the first one we went to. I was instantly in love with it and I wanted to move in right away. I love decorating it too. It's so much fun to finally be in a home. I was in apartments in the past before me and Ryan got hitched and you can never really make those your own. I have been thinking about things I want to do and buy for it as soon as Molly the Ruiner grows out of her puppy stage. Here are a few things I really really want:

I want a reclaimed wood kitchen table so so much. I am in love with the old world look of it. I love the imperfections and the beauty of the wood.

 This is from Pottery Barn and I am in love, but I don't have $2,000...ugh. So, I gotta figure something out. Maybe make my own?


I want a big square leather ottoman/coffee table for my front room like this:

I want some couches like this with the nail head trim, but I want it a little darker fabric and of course different throw pillows. The ones in the picture are ugs.

I want a fireplace. Ryan and I have talked about getting one from Costco. I looked on the website today and I really like this one:

I also want a really nice rug to go under my kitchen table...one that hides stuff. Because I don't like to clean. Ok so I will clean duh...but it would make it easier to go a little longer without doing it! Yes! I like a few of them..what do you think of these?

Anyway...that is just a few things that I may or may not be able to get down the road. What if Molly never stops liking the taste of furniture? Oh no no no...they all grow out of it right??? RIGHT????

Hello Sailor!

Old Navy is having a great sale right now! If I had tons of money and money trees in my backyard I would buy lots of stuff there. But, sadly I don't. This is what I bought a few days ago. I think my whole bill was under $50.

This shirt is 40% off! I got the white one, but I would've gotten more colors if they had my size in them. It fits sooo cute. It's really soft and longer so you can wear it with leggings.

I am in love with these boots. I never want to take them off. EVER. They are soooo comfy and did I mention I am in love with them? They are 50% off. I got brown and on Friday I am going to go back and get gray. Don't judge me!

Also, I got a black and gray pair of leggings for $5 each! I felt overjoyed with my frugalness!

Monday likes and dislikes 15

LIKES
- Margherita Pizza. Besides pepperoni pizza this is my favorite. It is a light pizza with olive oil, garlic, fresh basil, fresh tomatoes, mozzarella and Parmesan cheese. We went and got pizza on Friday and it was so good. My taste buds were sooo happy and my ass was crying "Noooooooooooooooo" If it gets any bigger I won't be able to get out of the door.

-Witches Night Out at Gardner Village. Here are some pictures of the group of sexies I went with.

As you can see...I have never looked more sexy in my life.

-Good friends named Natalie that bring me a home made pumpkin cinnamon roll glazed with caramel frosting. "nnnnNNNNooooooooOOOOOO" Weird...did you hear that muffled screaming?


DISLIKES
-People who bring their kids and huge strollers to Witches Night Out. There are tons of things for the kids to do during the day that these ladies can take their kids to. The Witches Night out event is for people 18 years and older. The website clearly states that. It's annoying because it's sooo crowded and you have annoying little kids running into you and you get almost run over 3045304354 times by a Witch pushing a stroller. If you have ever been to Gardner Village you would know how tiny all the cute shops are. They are not meant for kids and strollers on this night. It's chaos I tell you! Chaos!

-When there is road construction and the road you are driving on is all torn up and gravely (I have no idea if I spelled that right...you know gravel? like the rocks and dirt stuff) and the construction people don't put the dividing lines on it. So then you have crazy ass drivers in mini vans driving like there are no more lanes and the road is just one big lane and they can drive where ever they want to.

-Mollys stinky ass